I wrote this today. felt a bit down after doing so, for some reason
btw english is not my native language, I apologize for any misspelled words or similar things.

To lose the sun

I sat on the bus today, thinking.
I tought about love.
And I thought about losing love.
I thought about losing the sun.

To one minute being with the person you love more than anything in the whole world
To know that the person you love more than anything in the whole world loves you too
To the next minute having all that ripped away from you

It would be like gathering clouds darkening the ground beneath your feet
And like hearing the sky ripping apart with thunder and seeing lightning flash
And like feeling rain trickling down your face, and into your open mouth, but not feeling it

It would be like no longer knowing happiness
And like hearing your heart screaming in agony, and your throat turning sore when life goes out of you
And like falling on your knees, and closing your eyes not wanting to see

You would feel darkness seeping through each and every one of your pores
You would be a living dead, lost without a purpose in life
You would scream in despair and tear at the ground

It would feel like an iron fist gripping your heart, threatening to crush it
And eating, sleeping and everything vital to you, would become unimportant, because nothing apart from the pain would matter
And days passing, and people speaking, and the world turning, would not matter one bit, because all that mattered, was taken from you

Your empty stomach would want to heave, and your fingers would not be able to stop shaking
Your sore feet would not want to stop running, away from the truth waiting for you, calmly
Your aching heart would want to escape from the boundaries of your chest, and explode into thousands of pieces

It would be terrible to lose the sun
Everyone will lose the sun, at one time or another
But the one's who do not love, for fear of losing the sun, will never Have the sun

I want to have the sun.